I want to let it all out!!

Lately I just feel so tired you know...
Like really tired.... emotionally...mentally...(physically - that goes without saying -- mother of two don't deserve a rest until you hit 50... :))
I'm just tired of being around angry people... and just because being the way I am, I just keep it to myself, with this muka cekodok basi... hmm... this is just not gonna be good for me in the long run...

I guess this is what happens when I keep everything bottled up inside me. I just can't let it out. The only 2 people that I can shout at would be The Kiddies.. I dunno la... I should probably be sent for an Anger Management course but for all the wrong reasons --- for me to BE ANGRY enough to let it all out! Rather than be the quiet mouse with a cekodok face.

But don't you angry people know that it’s no fun being around all that negative behavior?

Then again, it's no fun being around someone with a cekodok face either! So then this cekodok face will have to pretend to be happy and all ok.. then what? From cekodok becomes cuckoo? :p

I so need my Mocha Ice Blended now.

From splendid reading to deep realizations....

I have to say that I'm actually impressed with myself... I've finished reading 3 books in one month! Okay if you don't think Diary of a Wimpy Kid should be acknowledged as a book --- get this - I read 'A Thousand Splendid Suns' by Khaled Hosseini and khatam within a week!

When I started reading the book, honestly, I was quite hesitant to continue. I did'nt think that I would be able to finish the book. Heavy drama which would require full concentration and time. Tough!

But the book is indeed a page-turner. I was consumed with emotions throughout.

The book tells a story about the plight of 2 women in Afghanistan, Laila and Mariam. I love the way the writer differentiated the strengths and weaknesses of these 2 women. In the beginning, you can't help but feel uncomfortable about the mistreatments and the inability of these women to fight for their rights. But as you go along reading the book, you tend to understand why they are what the are... and you will have a sense of admiration for these women especially for Mariam who in the end had sacrifised so much for the happiness of others.

I find myself a bit heartbroken as well. I had wished that Mariam too would find happiness with Laila. I had wished that she would fought for her life when she was sentenced to death for killing her husband. But that's the syariah law and she fully took responsibility for her wrong doings.
And she knew that she would find an even more meaningful sense of happiness with God.

"Mariam wished for so much in those final moments. Yet as she closed her eyes, it was not regret any longer but a sensation of abundant peace that washed her over..... Mariam's final thoughts were a few words from the Koran, which she muttered under her breath:
He has created the heavens and the earth with the truth; He makes the night cover the day and makes the day overtake the night, and He has made the moon and the sun subservient; each one runs on to an assigned term; now surely He is the Mighty, Great Forgiver. "

Although the book ended with Laila and her efforts to make a difference in her life and others in Kabul, Mariam's character is too compelling to be forgotten. It is through her inner character that she has reached out to others - in the book - and also the readers.

This book has in a way inspired me to be a better mother and o well... actually to even have another baby.... ;) It's amazing how Khaled Hosseini, a male, could write very well about the love of a mother. I could feel the strong bond and the love of Laila, Mariam, Aziza and Zalmai.

But what I love the most about the book is all the realizations that it had brought on to me. The realization .....
..... of how thankful I should be with the life that I have....
..... of not to be consumed with petty things....
..... of the joy and appreciation that I value to be in the company of good friends...
..... of my parents who will forever be my umbrella of comfort..
.... 0f the hope of as a mother that when I leave this world I want to have the comfort of knowing my Amir and Sarah would be living a good life, if not better than I have...
.... of the awakening that as a wife I want to leave the world as a woman who had loved and been loved... that I will always be remembered as a guardian and a companion.

I guess the quest for a meaningful life and existence will never end.

This is a splendid book that I will definitely treasure!

Recording session with Hujan

Recording session for the jingle had to be done at the wee hours for 2 nights coz these guys are like owls... I could only manage to go for the first night... kalau dulu2 boleh stay up/lepak sampai pagi buta... ni pukul 12am pun rasa cam nak pengsan..

My sister got excited when I told her about the recording.. though she was complaining about how tired she was coz of work, tiba2 semangat nak ikut... at the studio, she got even more excited and asked if we could bring her 3 kids and hubby the next day! Actually she even suggested to bring my mother and father! ;)

So, really among the budak2 muda tiba2 sesat lak 2 org makcik and 2 orang pakcik (Eddy and En. Rahman who were also there to take pics and footage) kat situ...

I kinda thought when they say recording, that would mean the whole group singing/playing the instruments together and they record it la kan.. tapi zaman sekarang canggih...sume pakai machine/computer... so it could be done one by one... i.e by the time we came, it was AG's turn to play the guitar... Am's session with his drum dah habis... and although Noh was there, he would only sing the next day bila sume music dah ready....

It was kinda cool really to be experiencing all this... tinggal memang tak larat je la.. and the thought of having to attend to the kids when I reach home at 1.30am and then going to work the next day lagilah buat rasa macam nak pengsan....

I have to say that I'm really pleased with the commitment by the band.. maybe it's too early to tell? I dunno.. I guess reading the newspapers about them the past one year made me skeptical about their behaviour/commitment... but so far they've been very accommodating and they can do things really fast... It's good also I think that they have someone like Dimas who is more matured and really cares about the band... kalau tidak I'm sure they won't be able to survive this long...

Can't wait to share the jingle with you peeps! :)




My sister who was like malu2 kucing bila Noh ajak amik gambar... she went like .. takpe..takpe..tak payah.. tak payah.... and then Noh slamba said...Kak, bukan senang akak nak duduk kat kerusi ni pastu amik gambar ngan saya... ;p


See.. like me... no malu2 kucing one..... :)

AG Coco

Noh Hujan foolin around in the studio

Al Fatihah, K. Ruby Ahmad

It's always sad when you put a face to death...

K.Ruby Ahmad, our fellow TKCian senior who is known to be so full of life, passed away last night.

Al Fatihah... My condolence to her family.. she will be remembered...



"I have friends of varying ages (both younger and older), of varying professions and background. The association with many friends is so enriching. It opens up my wolrd to the different perspectives of life. It makes me do new things in my life. Changes!


I learn more today, than I ever did before, through the various friendships, I have struck along the way. It mellowed me somewhat, with sharing of both happiness and sadness, successes and failures with our friends.


It is humbling to realise that friendship is about value not material. - Ruby Ahmad "

Other tributes to K.Ruby:

Marina Mahathir
Nuraina Samad
Zetty J
K.Teh's

Farewell...We'll miss you!

Last Saturday we bid farewell to Pn Azian a.k.a Numero 2...
My history with Pn Azian started waayyy back then when I was in DaimlerChrysler... we were not close then... we hardly even see / speak to each other because we were not in the same department or even the same wing.. so it was the occassional hi(s) and bye(s) in the loo..at the pantry.. at the coffee machine etc... but on her last day with DaimlerChrysler she came to my desk and asked if I were interested to join B*N.. did'nt think she was serious then... did'nt even think that I would hear from her again after that.... but ... she followed-up.. called..texted me... and finally asked me to come for an interview with the CEO...

Soon after my history begun with her at B*N... There were many people who came to me and said that she's a gory boss... but hmmm... I dunnola.... maybe if you don't perform and don't do your work properly then she has to be gory with you la to get the job done... but till today after like 4 years working with her I find her to be very OK.. to me, the Bank needs someone like her to change the working attitude, culture, environment etc in order to bring the Bank to the next level... and she has indeed done a lot for the Bank!

Her commitment and hardwork were both well-acknowledged which is why within 5 years she could moved on to be Numero 2 in the Bank diapit oleh Numero 3 and 4 who are both males... definitely not easy...

I wish you all the best Pn Azian... We will definitely miss you! I hope you're really staying home to bake and cook.... ;)


It should have been just the 3 of us.... picture would have looked better... did'nt have the heart to crop Kama's picture though... ;)

Yes, she cried..but this was not a picture of her crying... this was when we showed a clipping of her first appearance in Selamat Pagi Malaysia - with Mak Datin hairdo and bushy eyebrows!

The singing emcees - yes, they can sing and emcee!

The team with Pn Azian..

With Sally who did 2 really cool multimedia/video for the night!


Yes, yes... we all want to follow u wherever you wanna go after this... haha.. kidding..kidding..

Huhu..I'm ssoooo gonna miss you!

p/s: Her best advice to me ever : Emilia, no matter what happens don't cry in front of him! -this was when I had to face an ex-Senior Management member who is super duper garang and famous for quotes like "Someone will die today!"

HUJAN! It's raining men!

Things are moving so fast!

Contract signed.Hujan came back from Europe tour and worked on our jingle. Noh did'nt sleep .. yet did a fantastic job on giving us 3 proposed jingles. Totally love 2 of em - we were in consensus though on which had the commercial value.

Same afternoon gave jingle to ad agency and discussed on the concept. Totally loved the concept and it opened my eyes to a whole branding campaign that we could do with them. Same evening Numero 2 was excited to get Numero 1 to listen to the songs. I was skeptical as to whether he would like any of them. But he loved both too - well we did have an interesting discussion on the 2 songs coz he preferred the one that we thought was not that commercial. I tried soft-selling the branding campaign coz it was still something very 'rough' at that point of time. Numero 1 looked at me all weird.. like.. hmm..biar betul budak ni... :p

Same night called Dimas-Hujan and agency to improve the lyrics and meet up for proper presentation on Friday i.e today.

13 people in the room during presentation including Hujan, agency and Numero 1 & 2. I could see from their faces initially that they did'nt quite buy the concept presented by the agency. But I was actually really excited with the concept. I love it because it would be fresh. It would be something that I guess people would never ever thought BSN would do. So I just gambled and blabbed about the branding campaign that we could develop from the proposed concept. In the end it was almost like I was pitching for the campaign instead of the agency... ;) AND THEY BOUGHT IT! (i hope the agency would really do a good job on the campaign if not it would be my head on the chopping board!)

So next Monday would be our private get-to-know/chill session with Hujan at a cafe in KLCC. The E-Channel department would then be working with them on a photoshoot for below the line ad campaigns. We're also finalizing the lyrics for the jingle next week. Week after would probably be to work on production schedule for the TVC. Then the shoot for TVC would be done for 2 days before these guys leave for their US tour.

I think I am getting too comfortable with this agency. Can't blame me when they have done such a good job and put some really good thoughts for all the projects right?

I've to give credit to Numero 1 & Numero 2 lah.. it's much easier to be creative when we're not bogged down with budget constraint. I'm glad that they were very open with all the suggestions/ideas. Of course they've got stuff that they disagreed to. But those to me were constructive disagreements?

Well ok.. I don't wanna get too excited here. But I really hope the TVC will be another cool TVC for *SN! As for the branding campaign...kalau betul2 jadi, memang best!


With Dimas, Noh, Adelina, Linda and Numero 2 at Hujan's studio.. listening to the jingle.. Took lotsa pics.. but this Noh likes to make funny faces.. so, I can only put this one laahh...

1 book, 1 month

In my effort trying to keep up with my personal campaign of 1 book,1 month, I've decided to go back to basics and read simple books which I can foresee that I could finish reading within the deadline.

I took up Mona's suggestion and bought this.




And I'm so glad that I did..It's freaking cool and hillarious!

Honestly, when I was at MPH it was between this book and that book. This was suggested by Shahzan...apparently this book is good for soul searching..I was memang looking high and low for this book... since I was not well-versed with anything Paulo Coelho's I told the Shop Assistant that I was looking for a book titled Alcamous or Alcamus - she gave me a Microbiology book!

I tried stuffs by Cecilia Ahern.. but this book is too sappy for me la.. it's good.. but it kinda make me feel I dunno...lost and sad? Bought this 2 months ago and I was stuck at page 109. I've got 600+ pages to go! :p

Yeah... for the moment, I'll stick to the Wimpy Kid! Already bought part 2! :)