Pssttt...rumor has it...

Rumor has it that a Senior Officer is having an affair with his own staff..

When I first heard about it (btw, I was one of the last ones to know) I could'nt care less la because for many many years that I've worked in various organization, I've came across similar cases in not one but all of the organizations'! But then the rumor got juicier -- affair --girl asked to divorce wife -- married the girl in Siam -- wife divorced --- divorced wife went to see HR people ---

Everyone was of course sympathetic with the wife and feels very strongly that the girl is a 1st Class b*atcccchhh! And this rumour supposedly came from a reliable source. Thank God I did not go on a rumour spreading spree.. I only told 1 person ok, 2 counting hubby..A week after I was told of the rumour, I got a wedding invitation from the girl! And she's getting married to her current fiancee!!Because of the whole chaos she has been transferred to another branch! See how gullible people can be!! See the damage of mulut orang kan!

And in cyber and FB world pulak rumour has it that a girl who is a kerabat diraja, has many strong followers/friends in FB (even made many of them angau of her) (of course she must be cun and all lah kan).. well, apparently this cun,lovable and friendly chick died of cancer a couple of days ago.. and below is an excerpt of the note that she wrote before she died:

My Last Note to all my friends.
Today (January 27, 09) at 12:38pm

Teman-temanku..Di saat kalian semua membaca nota ini, Lia mungkin dah ada kat atas katil hospital.Anggaplah kalau umur Lia tak panjang, nota ini jadikanlah nota terakhir Lia. Simpanlah jadikan kenangan terindah kalian. Kalau Lia ok, aka nada nota yang lain. Hehehe..Lia terlalu sayang korang semua. Selama hampir dua bulan Lia joined FB, ramai yang telah berjaya menyentuh hati Lia. Ada yang Lia kenal sebelum FB dan ada yang Lia kenal ketika di FB. Lia pun tak sangka belum sampai 2 bulan Lia join, kawan-kawan Lia dah nak dekat 900 orang.

Kalau Lia mampu, Lia nak kenal dengan semua orang. Tapi malangnya Lia tak mampu. Tapi Lia nak ucapkan terima kasih sebab sudi jadi kawan Lia dalam FB ni. Kepada yang rapat dengan Lia, Lia sayang korang sampai bebila. Terlalu banyak kenangan yang Lia lalui dengan korang. Korang tau waktu Lia gembira, korang tau waktu Lia sedih dan korang tau waktu Lia gila-gila. Setiap seorang memberi kesan dalam hidup Lia. Selama Lia menanggung sakit, korang yang banyak hiburkan hati Lia. Memang Lia taknak cerita tentang cancer Lia sebelum ni. Lia nak orang terima Lia kerana Lia bukan kerana simpati dengan penyakit Lia.Ada beberapa nama yang Lia nak mention kat sini:

YAZRINE – you will always be my invisible love. Tuhan jew yang tahu hati ini.NORMAN – I hope you’ve gained your strength and self-esteem by now. Let it be our fairytale story. I know u are strong enough to face the world again.ADDHA – Lia nak mintak maaf dengan abg. 10 jari lia susun. Maafkan Lia.AQIM – Jagalah dirimu bebaik k. Lia tau Aqim kuat.TAKAYUKI – Pa, maafkan Ma sebab hubungan kita terputus. Ma nak Pa kuatkan semangat. Study hard k. Ma kenal Pa sebelum Ma joined FB lagi. Ma tau Pa kuat.EB – Lia ada email EB on the girl yang minat kat EB tu. Dia lawa dan baik and I’m sure she will be able to rock your world too.EWAN – Janji dengan Lia yang Ewan akan sentiasa vogue ok baby? *wink*TAARIQ – Lia doakan you akan jumpa your true love one day. She’s out there somewhere.LAKSAMANA – Kalau tak panjang usia beta, Laksamana carilah pengganti yang boleh dilindungi. Sesungguhnya kaulah pelindung yang paling setia.ZZ – Lia bersyukur sebab Lia dah berjaya luahkan apa yang ada dalam hati dengan abg. Abg seorang jew yang faham. Terima kasih abg.FAIZAL – Simpanlah rahsia saya bebaik. Saya percayakan awak. Moga-moga awak jumpa orang yang boleh awak kacau pagi-pagi.AIDIT – Terima kasih atas nasihat awak. Terima kasih dgn semua message awak pagi-pagi. Buat lagu yang lagi power lepas nie. Another ‘Ku Menunggu’ ok?MKAA – The blog you made just for me with the password of ALIA really made me cry so bad. Never in my life I thought someone is willing to do that for me. I didn’t know. Seriously I didn't know. Why didn’t u tell me??????? I’m very sorry for the way I have treated you all this while. Maafkan saya. Awak, tolong maafkan saya!!ADAH – Lia doakan Adah akan bertemu dengan orang yang bebetul akan cintakan Adah. Sayangkan Adah sepenuh hati dan doa Lia semoga Adah akan bahagia. Kasih sayang Adah yg terlalu banyak itu hanya layak utk orang yang sygkan Adah sepenuh hatinya.EKIN – Kuatkan semangat k syg! Lia tau Ekin kuat. Lia harap Ekin ingat semua pesan Lia. Satu hari nanti, Ekin akan bahagia. Ekin terlalu comel dan baik.AZIAH – I doakan u sampai ke jinjang pelamin. Itu doa I selalu. Andai kata ditakdirkan Tuhan tiada jodoh, kuatkan semangat. I know you’re a strong girl. Cari yg gelaps cepat!KAK LISS – One day you’ll find someone special that would love you as much as you love him. You will always be my guardian angel.FEE – Saya sayang awak dan ramai yg sayang awak jugak. Awak tetap akan jadi my favorite guy. Jaga diri bebaik. Jangan tinggal solat.IRWAN – Kalau sy xde umur, sy xnak jumpa awak kat Hell tau.. Sy nak awak jd HeavenBoy pulak… *wink*TFCH – Check your inbox.ABG MIZAN – I will miss all your morning messages.PANDA BEAR – I will miss all the ‘pokings’.

Banyak lagi nama yang Lia nak mention tapi Lia tak mampu. Semua orang Lia sayang. Semua orang Lia amek berat. Tapi Lia hanya buat mana yg termampu. Kepada sesiapa yg pernah kecil hati dgn Lia, tolong maafkan Lia yer. Lia insan biasa jew. Lia bukan Nabi. Lia buat silap. Jadi mana yg pernah Lia buat silap, Lia memohon maaf dari semua. Doa korang semua, hanya Allah yang mampu balas. Selepas Lia joined FB on 5th of Dec 2008, Lia rasa happy sgt. Lia ramai jumpa kawan baru. Ada yg jadi kakak Lia, abang Lia, kawan baik Lia, adik Lia. Semua Lia sayang. Kalau mampu, Lia nak beri semua orang hati Lia.

Dan kepada yg terasa Lia jauhkan diri, bukan kerana Lia benci. Tapi Lia jauhkan diri atas kebaikan korang jugak. Lia tau yg Lia tak boleh janjikan apa-apa. Lia tau yg umur Lia mungkin tak panjang. Maafkan Lia sayang. Buat semua, kehadiran korang semua cukup bermakna buat Lia. Kesudian korang add Lia amat Lia hargai. Kalau ada jodoh, ada umur panjang, InsyaAllah kita jumpa kat sini lagi. Kalau umur Lia tak panjang, semua jaga diri bebaik. Jangan lupakan Lia. Lia sentiasa ada di hati korang semua. Akhir kata, assalamualaikum semua.
Ikhlas,Tengku Puteri Alia Fareenah binti Tengku Raja Mohammad Majid Shah.Olympia, Kensington, London @ 4.28am (GMT)

Did you just cry reading the note? Of course many of her friends were at lost..probably cried like buckets of tears the past couple of days/weeks..some were just like zombies.. BUT guess what? It looks as if this girl never even existed! Someone posted this message from a FB Admin:

IMPORTANT MESSAGE TO ALL USERS 7:12pm

This is an important message from Facebook admin, we are advising our users that this profile;"Nirda Dafina HasLah""YM Tengku Puteri Alia Fareenah binti Tengku Raja Mohammad Majid Shah""Shawn Mizan Abdul "originate from the same IP. We would like to encourage our users to report all the scams done through these profile to us. Admin

Drama giler siott... well,if this person really exists you are definitely missed by many and they are praying for you.. Al-Fatihah..but if you're a fake.. Girl! Hopefully one day you'll be forgiven for pulling this idiotic prank which had affected the lives of many people!

To the rumour mongers and psychos who are desperate for attention, if you’re willing to risk spreading rumours and telling lies then you should be able to stand up to the heat and explain your intentions.

Annoying cough

I've got a bad bad bad cough! It's very very very annoying! Especially when I've to attend meetings and on top of that do a presentation. Being the 'gentleman' that I am, I apologize everytime I cough--macam tindakan refleks kat lutut tu. Dunno why? (Puzzled!).

I've got a million things--okay I'm exaggerating--I've got a couple of things in my head that I want to share but I'm just too annoyed to blog because of the coughing. And Wi Fi signal is crappy today.

By the way, Fida Happy Birthday! Fern, Congratulations on the new addition!

A trip to Petaling Street

When my colleagues told me that they plan to go to Jalan Silang (near Kotaraya,fyi) during lunch time to buy some party stuff for their kids.. I went like "Sure or not? Nanti balik konfem muka berkerak and berkarat.." Pastu nak naik bas to Kotaraya!! They asked me to tag along so I said err.. no thanks... Tu zaman Uniten dulu boley la.. naik bas takde aircond and macam baru keluar estet pun okay ajer..McD blakang Kotaraya and Rex were like our hotspots...

But after much persuasion and assurance that we were going by car I thot..well, what the heck..lunch break will be almost 3 hrs today...so I've got time to kill.. and so we went..we did'nt go to just Jalan Silang but even to Petaling Street where these people found a shop which sells dirt cheap party packs and all..so sape2 yg nak buat b'day party anak, takyah lah gi kat Party shop kat Bangsar/Ampang tu.. gi je Petaling Street..

We walked until kaki melecet... Paling best tengok the flowers' shop there... to all men out there who keeps on giving reasons to get flowers for your loved ones sebab konon mahal and wasting money..pegi je kat Petaling Street.. A nice big bouquet of roses is just RM 30-40.. tak payah turun kereta pun..it's just by the roadside..u wait in the car, they can give the flowers to you...2 thumbs up for customer service, I tell you!To all kakak2 and makciks2 no need to go to Golok or Rantau Panjang to get the nice plastic flowers that you see in Anjung Seri/Impiana magazine..Vases pun tak payah lah beli kat S*F--various shapes and sizes at very reasonable price there!

And of course NEVER EVER leave Petaling Street without tasting the infamous Air Mata Kucing!

Best tau pegi Petaling Street..tak payah gi Oxford Street...tapi yelah..balik memang muka berkerak abis beb.. :)

PMS

It's that time of the year again.. no..not Premenstrual Syndrome..that would be monthly.. :p

I had my PMS (Performance Measurement System) .. or to put it simply my work performance evaluation session with Madam Cenc yesterday. Like the rest of the world, Madam Cenc has also caught the Obama syndrome. So, throughout the 2 hour (mind you, it was from 6.00-8.00pm!) I think Obama's name probably came up like more than 50 times..

I was suffering from a bad migraine since 5pm but of course I had to keep a straight face and made sure I laughed at her jokes because she has not given me the actual marks for my performance yet...yes, yes, alang2 dah panggil why not give this Corporate Affairs Manager a mental torture.. smart, that woman...

Somehow,lately Madam Cenc suka pulak nak berborak.. suddenly become like buddy2 with me..sometimes in the evenings she would just drop by at my place and tell me her problems of the day.. so yesterday apart from trying to educate me about Obama so that I could be a visionary like him, she told me about her cat which prefers gourmet cat food... why she wants to resign etc..

I guess it paid off being a good listener... my marks were not that bad.. and her comments (read below)..hmmm.. I liiikkeeeee...

Emilia is a performance driven person, able to work effectively to meet her job requirements. Whilst focusing on the creative aspects of her work, she has also successfully put into place various procedures and policies to ensure the smooth running of the Division. She is a kind and responsible person, a person who achieves things quietly, but effectively. Her trademark is her personable nature, her gifts in communication at the same time the ability to ensure organizational objectives are met.

To take the Division to the next step forward, she will need to develop her own style of leadership and to develop her own vision of what is possible and then using her talents and to implement this vision for the betterment of all.

I believe her kindness and coupled with vision, will take her far whilst experience and exposure will enhance her ability as a Manager.

It makes me wonder though..

1. Is it good to be a 'kind' manager? Somehow the Hitler/Bush/Olmert leaderhip style seems to be the in thing..the Obama style..well we have yet to see..

2. Is there such a thing as a quiet person who has a gift in communication... hmmm... I myself should be a PR case study.. :p

3. Would I be missing Madam Cenc's words of wisdom..free motivational talks and evening chats? ;)

Of dreams and nightmares

Of late I've been having weird dreams and nightmares.. nightmares not as in the nightmare on elm street type but more like a bad dream lah..something that I truly hoped did not happen.. and what irks me the most is that the dreams seem to be almost too real okay..

Last 2 weeks I had a dream that an ex-tkcian fren was getting hitched.. it was like soo real..when I woke up I felt tired because supposedly it was a long drive to the wedding..and then I had to siapkan the budak2 and all..But if this turns out to be real..then I guess it's not too bad of a dream.. ;)

Last Saturday I dream about a particular someone had visited a place called Alexis.. not Alexis in KL okay.. it's Alexis in Jakarta..and in that dream the place is like an adult entertainment punya place.. don't even know that such a place even existed in Jakarta...so I had googled about the place and true enough it is like an adult entertainment hotel???? This is a real nightmare. If this turns out to be real then someone will be in serious trouble, I tell you.

Last night I dream that I was going to be late for my training today because I had lost my shoe. I only had sebelah je kasut nak pakai and was practically begging people to get a pair of shoes that I can use.. my colleague who was attending the training together with me was already calling me on my mobile like crazy..in the dream she was wearing a grey striped shirt... so, when I woke up I was feeling angry because I missed the training..skali tengok baru pukul 8..so I got up immediately to get ready to make sure that I was not gonna be late... but because today ada accident at Sg Besi I arrived a couple of mins late..and yg paling best tu my colleague was wearing the exact same shirt in the dream???!!!!!

I usually don't take my dreams too seriously..but frankly, in the past my dreams had somehow {most of them actually} jadi macam signs la lebih kurang..is this good or bad? hmmm..I dunno..

So, since I have some free time today, I had googled about dreams...and here are some interesting facts that I've found about em'...

Top 10 Amazing Facts About Dreams

10. Blind People Dream

People who become blind after birth can see images in their dreams. People who are born blind do not see any images, but have dreams equally vivid involving their other senses of sound, smell, touch and emotion. It is hard for a seeing person to imagine, but the body’s need for sleep is so strong that it is able to handle virtually all physical situations to make it happen.

9. You Forget 90% of your Dreams

Within 5 minutes of waking, half of your dream if forgotten. Within 10, 90% is gone. The famous poet, Samuel Taylor Coleridge, woke one morning having had a fantastic dream (likely opium induced) - he put pen to paper and began to describe his “vision in a dream” in what has become one of English’s most famous poems: Kubla Khan. Part way through (54 lines in fact) he was interrupted by a “Person from Porlock“. Coleridge returned to his poem but could not remember the rest of his dream. The poem was never completed. Curiously, Robert Louis Stevenson came up with the story of Doctor Jeckyll and Mr. Hyde whilst he was dreaming. Wikipedia has more on that here. Mary Shelley’s Frankenstein was also the brainchild of a dream.

8. Everybody Dreams

Every human being dreams (except in cases of extreme psychological disorder) but men and women have different dreams and different physical reactions. Men tend to dream more about other men, while women tend to dream equally about men and women. In addition, both men and women experience sexually related physical reactions to their dreams regardless of whether the dream is sexual in nature; males experience erections and females experience increased vaginal blood flow.

7. Dreams Prevent Psychosis

In a recent sleep study, students who were awakened at the beginning of each dream, but still allowed their 8 hours of sleep, all experienced difficulty in concentration, irritability, hallucinations, and signs of psychosis after only 3 days. When finally allowed their REM sleep the student’s brains made up for lost time by greatly increasing the percentage of sleep spent in the REM stage. [Source]

6. We Only Dream of What We Know

Our dreams are frequently full of strangers who play out certain parts - did you know that your mind is not inventing those faces - they are real faces of real people that you have seen during your life but may not know or remember? The evil killer in your latest dream may be the guy who pumped petrol in to your Dad’s car when you were just a little kid. We have all seen hundreds of thousands of faces through our lives, so we have an endless supply of characters for our brain to utilize during our dreams.
Just paying the bills…

5. Not Everyone Dreams in Color

A full 12% of sighted people dream exclusively in black and white. The remaining number dream in full color. People also tend to have common themes in dreams, which are situations relating to school, being chased, running slowly/in place, sexual experiences, falling, arriving too late, a person now alive being dead, teeth falling out, flying, failing an examination, or a car accident. It is unknown whether the impact of a dream relating to violence or death is more emotionally charged for a person who dreams in color than one who dreams in black and white. [Source]

4. Dreams are not about what they are about

If you dream about some particular subject it is not often that the dream is about that. Dreams speak in a deeply symbolic language. The unconscious mind tries to compare your dream to something else, which is similar. Its like writing a poem and saying that a group of ants were like machines that never stop. But you would never compare something to itself, for example: “That beautiful sunset was like a beautiful sunset”. So whatever symbol your dream picks on it is most unlikely to be a symbol for itself.

3. Quitters have more vivid dreams

People who have smoked cigarettes for a long time who stop, have reported much more vivid dreams than they would normally experience. Additionally, according to the Journal of Abnormal Psychology: “Among 293 smokers abstinent for between 1 and 4 weeks, 33% reported having at least 1 dream about smoking. In most dreams, subjects caught themselves smoking and felt strong negative emotions, such as panic and guilt. Dreams about smoking were the result of tobacco withdrawal, as 97% of subjects did not have them while smoking, and their occurrence was significantly related to the duration of abstinence. They were rated as more vivid than the usual dreams and were as common as most major tobacco withdrawal symptoms.” [Source]

2. External Stimuli Invade our Dreams

This is called Dream Incorporation and it is the experience that most of us have had where a sound from reality is heard in our dream and incorporated in some way. A similar (though less external) example would be when you are physically thirsty and your mind incorporates that feeling in to your dream. My own experience of this includes repeatedly drinking a large glass of water in the dream which satisfies me, only to find the thirst returning shortly after - this thirst… drink… thirst… loop often recurs until I wake up and have a real drink. The famous painting above (Dream Caused by the Flight of a Bee around a Pomegranate a Second Before Awakening)by Salvador Dali, depicts this concept.

1. You are paralyzed while you sleep

Believe it or not, your body is virtually paralyzed during your sleep - most likely to prevent your body from acting out aspects of your dreams. According to the Wikipedia article on dreaming, “Glands begin to secrete a hormone that helps induce sleep and neurons send signals to the spinal cord which cause the body to relax and later become essentially paralyzed.”

Bonus: Extra Facts
1. When you are snoring, you are not dreaming.

2. Toddlers do not dream about themselves until around the age of 3.

3. From the same age, children typically have many more nightmares than adults do until age 7 or 8.3. If you are awakened out of REM (Rapid Eye Movement) sleep, you are more likely to remember your dream in a more vivid way than you would if you woke from a full night sleep.

Addicted

I am addicted to articles by Dr. Farish Ahmad Noor.. okay in all honesty I would not have cared about who he is if not for Sho-on saying that he’s a damn good speaker and he’s hot… hehe..

But really after reading a couple of articles written by him about Islam and more recently about Gaza..I am totally addicted.

About Dr Farish Ahmad Noor (I got this from Wikipedia).




Dr Farish Ahmad Noor (also Dr. Badrol Hisham Ahmad-Noor, born 15 May,Georgetown,Penang is a Malaysian author and researcher currently attached to Zentrum Moderner Orient (Centre for Modern Oriental Studies) in Berlin,Germany. He is also a senior fellow at the NanyangTechnological University, Singapore. He received his BA in Philosophy & amp; Literature from the University of Sussex in 1989, before studying for an MA in Philosophy at the same University in 1990, an MA in South-East Asian Studies at the School of Oriental & amp; Asian Studies in London, before completing his PhD at the University of Essex in 1997.

Dr. Noor's teaching credits include the Centre for Civilisational Dialogue, University of Malaya and the Institute for Islamic Studies, Free University Berlin. Farish A. Noor's articles comment upon, attempt to interpret, and build bridges over the conflict between Islam and Judeo-Christian cultures. The perspectives Dr. Noor expresses give his writing a reasoned tone, not favoring either side, but instead analyzing how the sides fail to communicate and accept each other.

You can read some of his articles here:

Gaza and the liberal conscience-v- the lessons for Malaysia: www.othermalaysia.org/2009/01/13/gaza-and-the-liberal-conscience-v-the-lessons-for-malaysia/#more-563

Gaza-terrorising the victims through the war on terror: www.othermalaysia.org/2009/01/06/gaza-terrorising-the-victims-through-the-%e2%80%98war-on-terror%e2%80%99/

Of tomboys and sissy-women: http://www.othermalaysia.org/2008/12/09/of-tomboys-and-sissy-women/#more-517

By the way, Sho-on.. u said he’s single/divorcee.. but I read somewhere he’s married to a German doctor lah..

To err is human, To forgive is divine, But to forget..that’s something else...

Dear friend,

Life is short . Why would you want to live in bitterness. It is like a poison that can shrivel your soul and can cause more pain than the original offense. Those who have wronged you will go on with their life and you will be the only one to continue to suffer. So learn to forgive, let go and move on with your life.

I understand that you don't want to forgive because then you would feel as if you are condoning/approving of what had happened. I know sometimes you just want to push the mute button and hold on to the grudges as long as you can. But really.. if you let it go, you will release yourself from the emotional rollercoaster that just negatively impacts your whole being.

Bitterness and unforgiveness hurts you more than it hurts the unforgiven one. Memang tak best kalau when you're hurting but actually macam syok sendiri nak terasa or sakit jiwa sorang2.. Often they don't even realize how they've hurt you. Yes, it’s even harder to forgive when there is no official sorry.

I guess our ability to forgive depends on the sense of responsibility for our own lives and relationships. I'm not saying that you deserve the mistreatment that makes you angry or hurt. But ultimately, the strength to forgive will more often be selfishness than anything else. It hurts too much to stay angry betul tak? and it becomes self-destructive to hold back forgiveness.

So, we forgive for the sake of love; we just sometimes get stuck on the way there. And we women sometimes would want to be stuck there as long as we could (there you are in Jakarta when everybody else is in Gaza--nih personal note--takde kena mengena..) if not for the obligations that we have to our friends/families.

But to forgive AND forget. I think that’s a myth. I think that’s just crap. So I don’t blame you for the resentment that you’re feeling right now. Maybe it’s too early of a stage for you to be forgetting. I’ve been there too. I know.. it’s an ugly place to be. The scar will always be there, but you will learn from your experience to not bring up the injury again. It is not that you have wiped it out of your memory, but that you have wiped it out of your arsenal to use as a weapon against the person that hurt you.

But of course, it also depends on the so called crime lah kan. I mean, suppose someone cheated you in a business deal and made your family suffer. Or a spouse is humping another woman. Or a drunk smashed into your car and crushed your leg. How to forgive and forget??? Not in a lifetime, man!

Okay..sorry..those are some extreme examples.

Maybe when you are a bit OK, ask yourself what you really want. Is it worth what you’re going through. Too often grudge holding leads you to bite off your nose to spite your face. Do you want to stay in this relationship or move on? Do you still feel love/connection to this person? If you do, it's time to forgive and forget. If you don't, then it's just time to pack your bags and kiddies Avent bottles, my dear.

Trusting is not easy especially if the trust has been broken before. It may take time to heal and rebuild the trust, but if you really know what you want, you’ll get through this.

As Oprah or Dr Phil as this may sound, when we forgive, it’s like we are choosing love over anger and regret. And that is truly divine.

If you can forget.. well.. that's just a bonus.. kudos to you..

p/s: I also read that when you are experiencing anger, fear, resentment, grief, or sadness - all factors of unforgiveness. Your body pumps chemicals into your system that research has shown, over time, can erode your immune system, impact your heart and blood pressure, and ACTUALLY CAUSE YOU TO GAIN WEIGHT! --- all the more reason to be forgiving, huh? ;)

Pick up line

Guy: Emm..xcuse me are u a Maxis user?
Lady: No...
Guy: Alamak you are supposed to say yes..
Lady: Huh? Why?
Guy: Then I can say 'because I can sense the HOTLINK between us'

:p

Reconnecting with friends

Seems like this is a month for me to reconnect with friends..old and new..

Last Friday I had fun catching up with Jett and Fida.. met up for early dinner which continued to supper.. apparently Jett and Fida continued on till 2 am for early breakfast? ..ish..ish.. u single people have all the luxury of time..

Today I received an email from an ex-colleague wayyyy before my DC days asking me out for lunch.. seems like she has been away from the country for many years and is back for a couple of months..

Jay my Unimate who now resides in US is coming back end of this month to attend a conference.. we're now planning a get-together with her...this has become quite a toughie as we do not want to dissapoint her..

Just as I was packing my stuff to leave the office, I got a call from someone I met during one of the events that I attended...asked me out for a coffee.. but ni gaya2 macam nak jual insurance..so, err.. not looking forward to it lah..

Actually I'm very bad at keeping in touch with people.. somehow it has always been the same bunch of people that I would stay connected with.

I'm trying to improve myself in this department... really.. I am.. :)

I've been tagged

Somebody tagged me..tapi first question pon dah buat org syahdu..
1. What would you miss the most if you die today?
Die today?Huwaaaa...
Watching my kids grow up....Huhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

How dare you make me feel mellow on a Monday morning.. lempang kang..

Did'nt bother to answer the rest of the Qs...

What a Lulu!

While driving to work this morning, I was wondering why people in the cars were stealing glances at me and with a smile on their faces..Apsal pulak ni.. Could it be because I look extra hot today clad in my B*N F1 shirt with my name imprinted on it.. :p

Tiba2 one motor bike came so close to the windows (in the mornings I usually drive with the windows down) so I thought.. apa mamat ni.. kut ye pun nak usha aku takkan kat tengah2 jln nih.. skali dia cakap "Kak ada kasut kat atas keta"...siottttsss!!!!! I forgot to put my pink nike shoes in the car..konon kemas2 barang letak la kasut kat atas kereta dulu..last2 I drove off with the shoes still on top of my car from Sg Ramal and time tu dah dekat nak sampai Uniten.... And while trying to find a spot to stop the car I had to make hand signal to tell all the good samaritans who were trying their very best to let me know about the freaking shows that yes..yes..I know ada kasut kat atas bumbung keta aku..this is normal.. I do this everyday... :p

Mallllluuuuuusssssssssss................

Carrot, egg or coffee bean...

It's no mystery that everything happens for a reason and that there are lessons in everything that happens to us. It is by knowing and accepting that everything happens for a reason: that the detours are part of our life journey..we are able to better accept the things we perceive as adversities that may happen to us daily.

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A young woman went to her mother and told her about her life and how things were so hard for her. She did not know how she was going to make it and wanted to give up. She was tired of fighting and struggling.

It seemed as one problem was solved! , a new one arose. Her mother took her to the kitchen. She filled three pots with water and placed each on a high fire. Soon the pots came to boil. In the first she placed carrots, in the second she placed eggs, and in the last she placed ground coffee beans. She let them sit and boil, without saying a word.

In about twenty minutes she turned off the burners. She fished the carrots out and placed them in a bowl. She pulled the eggs out and placed them in a bowl. Then she ladled the coffee out and placed it in a bowl.

Turning to her daughter, she asked, “Tell me, what do you see?”
“Carrots, eggs, and coffee,” she replied. Her mother brought her closer and asked her to feel the carrots. She did and noted that they were soft. The mother then asked the daughter to take an egg and break it. After pulling off the shell, she observed the hard boiled egg. Finally, the mother asked the daughter to sip the coffee. The daughter smiled, as she tasted its rich aroma. The daughter then asked, “What does it mean, mother?”

Her mother explained that each of these objects had faced the same adversity … boiling water. Each reacted differently. The carrot went in strong, hard, and unrelenting. However, after being subjected to the boiling water, it softened and became weak. The egg had been fragile. Its thin outer shell had protected its liquid interior, but after sitting through the boiling water, its inside became hardened. The ground coffee beans were unique, however. ! After they were in the boiling water, they had changed the water.

“Which are you?” she asked her daughter.

Which am I?

Am I the carrot that seems strong, but with pain and adversity do I wilt and become soft and lose my strength?

Am I the egg that starts with a malleable heart, but changes with the heat? Did I have a fluid spirit, but after a heartache, or some other trial, have I become hardened and stiff? Does my shell look the same, but on the inside am I bitter and tough with a stiff spirit and hardened heart?


Or am I like the coffee bean? The bean changes the hot water, the very circumstance that brings the pain. When the water gets hot, it releases the fragrance and flavor. If you are like the bean, when things are at their worst, you get better and change the situation around you.

When the hour is the darkest and trials are their greatest, do you give up?Or do you evolve and elevate yourself to another level? How do you handle adversity?


Are you a carrot, an egg or a coffee bean?

My 2009 resolutions

I've been wanting to blog about my new year's resolution but have not had the chance ..emm..more like time to do so kot... but let me first make time to be thankful for 2 major things :
1. My family and especially Little Yaya is in good health and even more groovy now with more hair and 2 teeny baby teeth
2. Madam cenc's resignation...yippee yeay! before the new year I was already at the crossroads.. seriously could not tahan her.. already at the verge of updating my resume and sending it out to interested parties..

I soooo want to start the new year with a positive heart and mind. Really I do. But hellloo.. if I keep on getting negative surprises should I be blamed for being a negative person, be moody and broody lah kan. The thing that irritates me the most is that this will usually happens when I feel that everything is A-OK..But like I said earlier on whatever lah.. I'm just soooo very tired of all this. It's getting old. It's getting lame. Maybe it will never end until I die.

So back to my new year's resolutions..these are the things that I want to do..some I've actually done..so that has somewhat lessened the pressure..

1. Tidy my room in the office --- done
2. Tell a b*atch to go fly kites --- nicely done although I so want to add "taik kucing engkau la in my reply".. hehe
3. Be punctual to work -- so far punch card belum merah --- jgn jeles my office got punch card machine.. tag2 tak main la
4. Kurangkan mengular kat coffee bean --- maybe just for breakfast..for the freshly squeezed orange juice.. for health reasons and to increase productivity level throughout the day ..
5. Save $ -- to get nice furnitures for the house..nice family holidays
6. Cook dishes not items .. har har har
7. Less screaming at Amir..eventhough he drives me up the walls..because no matter how loud I scream he would still do it anyway.. I should just learn to enjoy it
8. Try my very best to tak tinggal smayang...
9. Less procastinating --- almost there
10. Find time to spend with friends

I'll keep it at 10 for now.. Come June I'll do my half-year review, and we'll see how it goes.

Happy New Year and Best Wishes All Year Round!

Whatever

Would I want to know everything or memang some things are better left unsaid and unknown?

I'm not sure .. but what I know is that I value honesty.. maybe it also depends on the reason why in the first place I'm not being told about it.... if it's because it needs to be made a secret knowing that I don't like it being done and I would get pissed ... then by not telling that would be you being dishonest right? But if it's just simply nothing then I would not even give a hoot about it lah kan.

Or if you don't want to tell and you just want to wait until the whole thing blows up on your face pun boleh.

Whatever..Whichever..the end result will be the same..I guess.

Mamma Yaya!

Tulah..orang tua2 kata jangan excited sangat... tengah pokai tapi sanggup nak spend RM 300 tengok Mamma Mia konon...

My family bids farewell to 2008 with a heavy heart.. Sarah a.k.a Yaya, our little baby girl was down with a high fever on the 29th of December...(note: a day before Mamma Mia) We thought it was just viral fever... gave her medications.. even brought her out for makan on the 1st day she fell sick...

This was Sarah's first time on a baby chair...we were laughing because she was dozing off.. time ni ingat dia letih biasa aje..

But on the way back home I could feel that she was burning hot so we decided to go to a private hospital near our place.. Dr.African American (yes, he's not even Malaysian) told us that her temperature then was about 39 and so kena immediately check darah.. it was really scary the way the MO tried to get the blood sample from little Sarah.. she was super terrified and I was super horrified! Dr.African American said that from the blood test Sarah was confirmed to have dengue as her platlet count had dropped to 120 so she has to be hospitalized...

We brought Sarah to another private hospital so that she could be under the watch of her usual paeditrician... again little Sarah had to go through another blood test just a couple of hours after she had the first one... so you can just imagine how agonising it was for a little baby.
Little Sarah after the 2nd blood test and after they have put her on drip.

Yaya was warded and put on drip.. I spent the night with her but both of us of course could not sleep much.. Yaya was coughing and vomitting..but I was relieved when the nurse told me that Yaya was only down with viral fever as her platlet count was 160 and she tested -ve for dengue.. however, the dr on call that night said that she had a bad case of athma and has to be on nebulizer + undergo physio-therapy..

Did'nt bring toys for Yaya so these became her toys instead..

Yaya was crying and screaming throughout physio.. seriously I did'nt know when they say physio it means medically bashing my daughter and poking a tube through her throat.. Yaya now has developed a phobia for nurses and drs..

The next day, Yaya's paeditrician visited her and was not so agreeable on the treatments that were given to Yaya... so he asked to stop the physio treatment and some medications..as Yaya's fever was subsiding dr gave us some hope that she could be discharged that day butjust to be sure another blood test had to be done.. nasib baik this time when they took her blood she was sleeping... when the blood test came back, tengok2 Sarah memang confirm dengue pulak as her platlet count was dropping..

On the day that she was confirmed to have dengue she konged out for about 12 hours.. I managed to catch up on my reading and movies..

Thank God she was progressing well.. and after a couple of blood tests and another night in the hospital her platlet count was up again.. She was discharged today(new year)..at least we welcome the new year with a good news.. hopefully she will be better soon..

Happy New Year everybody!

Note: blogger is very sleepy whil blogging this so excuse the storyline, grammatical errors, spelling etc.