Pre-Raya Commotion...

When it comes to procastinating.. I am the Queen... this is one bad habit that has been haunting me since school days.. I know it is a bad habit, but somehow I'll still do it! That explains why my car, office desk, room are all in a mess --- I know I'm supposed to clean it up -- but I procastinate. Today, I sent a kain which is supposed to be made into a baju Melayu for my other half.. I've been having the kain I think 2-3 months back..kononnya nak carik a good tailor.. could have sent it much earlier riteeeee? but noooo.. I had to wait until 5 days before raya to send when the price will be higher and tailor ada byk baju nak settle.. but fret not..it's not for raya lah.. it's supposed to be worn during my sis in law's wedding on the 24th of October.. thank God I found a tailor ---Dzul De Classique -- am assuming he's good sebab dia ni rival Man Kajang, nama pon lagi ayu --- and the baju will siap on the 22nd of Oct..hopefully it fits him well..kalau tidak sure aku menggelupur tahap gaban sebab ada one day je nak alter...

Today everyone was already in the raya and holiday mood at the office.. from morning till about 2.00pm sume org including Mdm Cenc was in a good mood UNTIL ------- the volcano erupted!! When I walked into the office after lunch at 3pm (already menggelabah takut Mdm Cenc nampak) her PA whispered to me that Mdm Cenc is in a VERY VERY VERY bad mood --seriously.. dia cakap VERY 3 kali okay.. and Mdm Cenc was looking for me at 12pm and at 3.40pm there will be a meeting with all the mgrs.. sounds pretty serious I thought.. belum pon sempat panas bontot Mdm Cenc called me.. Die la I thot! Some more on my table ada an email she printed for me with a note saying that my Mailbox is full.. ini memang pantang tok nenek dia..tapi nak buat camno kan if while I'm gone I get so many big emails..

anyhow, I went to her room lah.. her hair yang baru rebonding cam terangkat sket kat blakang--this only happens bila dia garu kepala dia kalau tgh stress..muka berkerut..uwaa..die la..die la..of course she membebel about my mailbox being full tapi okay pulak..boleh gelak2..she was happy with the Fortune Magazine Q & As..she just wanted to let me know that she made a couple of changes and I'm supposed to tidy it up to be given to the CEO..phew... still I was anxious to know why she had called for an emergency mtg with the mgrs..

In the meeting ---- Mdm Cenc informed that something happened today that made her want to lempang some people..mak aiii..sampai camtu skali.. Suspen nyer..Apparently Mdm Cenc made some claim for a dinner organized by the department as she had used her own money first..since she will be going for cuti on Monday, she asked one of the staffs to check whether the claim has been setlled..when she said check, she meant to check with the Finance Department lah.. but the staff who had access to a particular system yg boleh check org punya account instead check thru the system -- this means he had access to view all transactions made in her account even since dinosaur years.. to him it's normal..sometimes I do the same thing..to check claim dah masuk ke tak I or utang credit card ada berapa, I would ask the staff to check sebab malas nak gi counter.. but the difference is that I give the permission..I authorize it.. In this case, she was not in the know.. and she being skema, never knew that this had been a practice in the Bank. Memang sepatutnya if the owner of the account tak authorize it as a banker memang lah tak boleh sesuka hati bukak. Even kalau parents, spouse mintak check pon tak boleh. Unless dapat court order ke.. BPR dtg ke..

Well, everything would have been okay had she not found the printed statement! Tu pun secara tak sengaja..she was printing something else..skali gi kat printer dia terjumpa statement dia kat situ..tak ke dia naik hantu! ok, to cut the story short, she was really pissed!I can't remember how many times she said to us that she was pissed..apa2 hal pon lebih 10 kali lah.. she called the staff..ada 2 staff yang involved..sorang tu dah sampai nangis2 kena maki..she asked the managers what she should do..she said kalau dia buat camtu kat her ex-boss, our ex-CEO yg known to be very the garang sure dia dah kena resign 24hrs.. tapi kitaorg kata jgn lah sampai camtu.. the 2 staffs tu memang baik and very hardworking..niat diorang baik..nak buat keje cepat utk dia..last2 after ceramah 1/2 jam she decided to give a show cause and warning letter...and since she's away on Monday, I was supposed to sign the letter on her behalf sebab I'm the only manager yg tak cuti next week.. gile.. tak kuasa nak sign..told her to settle it b4 she goes on leave. Tapi I can tell you lah.. sure hidup staff2 ni takkan aman lepas ni... sian lak kat diorang.. dah lah nak raya..but in this case, Mdm Cenc has the rights to mengamuk lah.. manalah tau kan kot dlm account dia ada 1 million ker.. tak pun ada 0 balance ker..

Anyway, after the commotion, we all pon siap2 lah nak balik..it was already 5 mins to 5 pm.. masuklah email from Mdm Cenc mintak maaf banyak2 kalau ada tersinggung or terkasar bahasa.. ye..ye..saya maafkan.. saya pon nak mintak maaf sebab banyak ngumpat.. tapi okaylah tu..rasanya dah banyak pahala puasa saya bagi kat Mdm...

I'm in my hari raya mood too--despite realizing that I actually don't have a baju raya lagi--- see...look what happens when I procastinate..hubby and kids all got new baju raya.. tomorrow I need to buy yang dah siap punyalah for myself..

People, Selamat Hari Raya & Maaf Zahir Batin.. Drive safe!

Introducing Mdm Cenc

Err.. due to safety and security reasons, a particular name in this blog has been changed.
Introducing Mdm Cenc --- short for Cencorot --- okayla tu cencorot kan supposed to be licik and in a way kinda clever..tinggal weng je..

Tazkirah

Throughout the month of Ramadhan B*N gets some really good ustaz to come and give ceramah to the staffs. It is not compulsory to attend tapi many staff would take some time off to attend the ceramah. I have not been attending any of it until the last one today. I like the penceramah. I’ve been to one ceramah by him and he’s really good. He's the one who has enlightened me about the importance of breastfeeding...yeap..not a doctor..but an ustaz..He is Ustaz Abu Hassan Din.. ex-imam besar Masjid Negara and the famous Ustaz Harun Din’s, younger brother.

Of course I’m not gonna share the whole of one hour ceramah here.. but I just thought of highlighting few interesting stuffs that I’ve learnt from the ceramah and the questions asked by the audience..

1. Ustaz Abu Hasan Din’s grandson is 1 tahun 8 bulan and he can follow thru sembahyang Maghrib with him all the way.

2. Another grandson of his who is just 5/6 years old dah hafal ayat2 and already prays 5 times a day. Someone then asked Ustaz, how can he learn so fast and some more the compulsory age to start ajar anak sembahyang is 7 years old. So the Ustaz replied, if they should start praying by age 7 that means they should start learning to pray way earlier..

Apparently, Imam Shafie hafal quran at the age of 6. There is no special method in teaching his grandson but his grandson has been listening to him bila dia jadi imam since kecik lagi. That’s how dia cepat tangkap all the ayat. To him if a father prays, get the son/daughter to also follow and listen to the ayat. InsyaAllah cepat aje dapat.

3. A lady asked the ustaz, if perempuan yang uzur in bulan puasa how can she tambah her pahala when she can’t do much i.e pray, baca quran, tahajud etc. The ustaz said that a lot of times women would say that it is so rugi that they uzur because they cannot do ibadah in bulan puasa.. but perempuan yang uzur could actually be doing more ibadah than a husband who can pray and fast.. he asked the lady:
Q: who wakes up first in the morning
A: wife
Ibadah number 1

Q: who makes the food/dishes for sahur
A: wife
Ibadah number 2

Q: who wakes the husband up
A: wife
Ibadah number 3

Q: who takes care of the house when husband goes for terawih
A: wife
Another ibadah

So, he said as long as we’re sincere in doing the ibadah, then there will always be pahala. It’s not the quantity he stressed. It’s the quality of the ibadah.

4. Do you know that it is actually NOT wrong to sembahyang last minute i.e the famous 2 in 1 concept that I’m also guilty of. U know how we wait till the last minute to pray so that we can also pray for the next waktu. Usually it will be zuhur and asar.

Some people say it’s really wrong to do this. But according to Ustaz, it is not wrong tinggal of course it is not afdal lah…tapi there is a danger to it… he gave an example.. kalau perempuan yang saje tunggu last minute to pray skali pukul 4 dia period then she will have to qada’ the sembahyang because she was actually suci for a few hours of zuhur.. so he added, imagine if you die in between the waktu..that means u owe God one time prayer which you could never ganti.

5. You should pay zakat dekat kawasan u earn your income...i.e if you work in KL and stay in Seremban, then u should pay in KL. Not at the masjid / pusat zakat near your house. But he did'nt elaborate much on this. I've always seen cases where people would pay at wherever convenient for them..so am not too sure..


Although the ceramah was really good I was on the verge of having yet another migraine attack so there were moments where the ustaz might have caught me dozing off.. I was seated like 4 rows from the stage.

Am thinking of asking my other half to pick me up and send me home but I've got too many things to settle. The Fortune magazine Q & As still not so complete and is due to be given to the CEO tomorrow. Got a Board photo session at 5.30pm today for 2008 Annual Report but this is something I am trying to mengelat attending anyway.

Here comes the migraine attack. Alamak cam nak pitam. Gotta lie down.

Today

No mood to work. Letih.Lapar.Ngantuk giler. Since I am in no mood to work at all, these are the things that I've done since I punched in at 10.23am:
1. Check emails
2. Replied emails
3. Baca Utusan Online --- Raja Petra kena ISA? Baik sumbat Teresa Ngok -- this is what my other half calls her and I think it suits her
4. Baca buku citer
5. Ngular and pegi bayar utang Citibank, Bank Rakyat
6. Baca buku citer
7. Check emails
8. Blogging this
9. Read a long email
10. Wrote a long email
11. Now no mood to do anything at all. Just want to go home.

It's 5.10 now. Will punch out at 5.20pm. I feel so productive looking at the above tasks that I've accomplished today!

Me in perak

I am actually blogging from a very dodgy hotel in Perak. Nope. There is no internet connection so this will have to be a delayed entry. Reached Perak at about 3pm and eveything was already being done by the branch people. I slept througout the journey so bila sampai macam fresh giler. The people are all very efficient and super friendly. They even booked us a hotel room each so that we can rest. Despite the dodginess, this hotel is wayyy better than our Bandung hotel lah.. the toilet especially. If my other half’s here he would agree I think. Takdelah bau-bau yang horror. Both of us are quite particular about the hotels that we stay at. Anyway, because everything was all set, we all now have a lot of time to rest..I think I might even be able to catch a good Cinemax movie with Gwyneth Paltrow in it.

I overheard my CEO’s assistant on the phone with the CEO just now..apparently CEO forgot to bring seluar baju melayu and he is in his jeans. Songkok and butang baju melayu pun tertinggal. So, he said he will be dressed like a naughty budak kampung for the majlis. Aduhai...

Function is expected to end at 10.30pm so I guess I’ll only reach home at 1-2.00am. Wonder how my other half is with the kids. I know for one he is more terrer than I am when it comes to tidokan Amir. Ohh..Amir has a thing for elbows... kena gentel siku bila nak tido. Bila siku hilang and dia terjaga he would cry or be all grumpy. Tapi kalau ada siku especially if it’s my other half’s siku, he can sleep for hours and hours. Baby Sarah lah sure buat hal punya.

Okay. Me want to watch this movie and then get ready.

Lepak

I have not been lepakking for quite some time especially with my girlfrens.. Shonko called yesterday ajak lepak berbuka but I feel bad to have to leave the kids and buat susah je for mama and papa to look after them during buka. So we planned for supper instead..at least I could put the kids to sleep first and I can kill time instead of again waiting like a crazy woman at home. It's a Friday --- yeap.. I'm still not loving Friday.

We decided to meet up at Old Town, Yap Kwan Seng. Azah was joining us after her class. When I reached there it was about 10.15pm. Man! The place was packed! I didnt know that it is thaattt happening at Old Town at night. I always go there to mengular during breakfast and it will be just like a normal restaurant.

Anyhow, I seriously miss lepakking with the girls..I know it's bad to say this.. not that I don't love being with the kids.. but I miss a time on my own.. no wonder my other half spends more quality time with his frens. I know it's fun.. especially for guysla..more activities to do.. more places to check out people..

and time flies so fast when you're in good company..

A Mother's Love

I had a migraine attack yesterday at about 6.30pm. I can’t remember the last time I had one. I used to have frequent attacks back in the school days. Anyway, it was so bad that I seriously felt like my brains could explode. I was shivering. My hair was wet with cold sweat. When I tried to stand up memang macam nak pitam. I didn’t want to break my fast as it was already almost time for berbuka. Amir as usual needs special attention during buka. Because my head was spinning I could not understand what he was saying. He was crying like mad wanting me to get the baby chair for him but I thought he wanted to go out and play. When I finally got him the chair he was looking at me all weird because I was in pain. I served him rice took a few sips of water and then literally passed out on the sofa.

My mother despite being tired handling 7 kids at home babysat me throughout the ordeal. While holding baby Sarah she made Milo, prepared food and went scouring for medicines for me. I felt so bad. I am now married with 2 kids but yet I have to still rely so much on my parents to take care of me. But there was nothing much I can do. I had no energy to even move. I guess that’s the thing about a mother’s love. It is something that no one can explain. It comes naturally with deep devotion and of sacrifice and pain. It is endless and unselfish and enduring come what may. They see their sick child (okay I’m 30 but still a child at heart) and they would immediately attend to them. No such thing as I’ll try my best or can you wait I’m in the middle of something. I was still not so well until the wee hours. Sarah woke up at 2am and Amir 10 minutes after. And again my mom came to the rescue. I was finally able to eat my dinner while she took care of the kids.

I could have felt sad and angry because I had actually hoped for someone else to be taking care of me. At 2am, if I had a C4 or a grenade which I can throw from Kajang to SA I probably would have done so. But yesterday, a mother’s touch made me forget about all the negativity and brought out so much love in me. Even at 3am with a heavy head I was actually kinda enjoying the moment with the 2 kiddies especially baby sarah yang tiba2 tak bad mood bila meniarap and nak babytalk pulak tu. I thought of taking a day off today and be with the kids but I know Mdm Cencwill be on to me like a hawk if I do so and I would not be at peace jugak kat rumah nanti.

I never told my mom how much I appreciate what she has done for me. Can’t remember the last time I hugged her and say I love her---I think it was back when I was in Form 3 when she was going for Haj. I would treat her for hi-tea coz I know she loves cakes, used to buy her nice hand bags because she collects them and buy her puffs after work since she does not really eat rice for dinner. This is my indirect way of telling her that I love her. But why is it so hard for us kids to show our love to our own mother. Jadi segan pulak to show it openly. Bila dah besar sibuk nak tunjuk kat husbands and boyfriends because we crave for their attention. But we get our mother’s love for free without having to ask for it and work hard to get it.

I hope in time I would be more open to show how much I love mama. And if I am not able to, I hope God will help me in showing my mother signs that I indeed have so much love for her and I don’t think I could ever live without her. And God, please give guidance to my kiddies to suffocate me with their love until forever! :)

The rich, the bold and the beautiful

My other half keeps a picture of a gorgeous chick in our shared laptop. It's a picture of Datuk K's son's gf. Indeed she is damn bloody beautiful. She has red lucsious lips, very fair with transculent skin, long and to-die-for healthy hair. Seriously! She beats Siti Nurhaliza, Erra Fazira, Maya Karin and the likes hands down. Recently someone showed me more pictures of her. The circulation of emails with her pictures seem to be populating the nation. Even though she's not a celebrity she practically already has an entourage of fans.

It's not easy to be a woman these days. Especially if you're not getting younger and your father is not a tycoon who puts up a trust fund for you at the age of 15.

Like what Dina Zaman once wrote: The pre-requisites, if you don’t have money: you better be beautiful. If you’re dirt ugly, you better be witty. Clever too, but not too clever, yah, we don’t want to outshine anyone else in their Pradas and Marc Jacobs.

I love and hate looking at the pictures of these young and beautiful girls who are born to be an ever so perfect socialite.

Love: well, who does'nt like looking at pretty things.
Hate: To think that my other half is in full adoration of the pretty things and I'll start checking myself out in the mirror.

But to all of you pretty young things....remember this.. u too will grow old...and at that time not even the best MAC make up or La Mer products can save you.

Crazy traffic

Traffic in Ramadhan is truly a nightmare. And if it's a Friday it's just like Freddy Krueger meets The Exorcist. I punched out at 5.01 pm but got stuck waiting for the lift. I am at Level 19. Some people who think they are so smart would press both the going up and going down button so the lift would practically be full all the time no matter how early I am.

Basically the traffic will start at the lift. Then I have to fight to get out of the parking area...be brutal enough to go to the furthest right lane once I get out of the gate. I almost got hit by a stupid Srijaya bus just now. The stupid impatient driver decided to make a u- turn over a divider because traffic was just crazy at the traffic lights. Takde otak siot. And of course KL is also full of drivers who think that they have the best strategy to get out of the traffic only to end up on the yellow spot and blocking all the other cars. Hellloooooo!! That's like a basic no-no okay..

To make things worst the not-so-smart tunnel was closed.

Today, I was in the car for close to 2 and a half hours! Reached home just in time for berbuka and was just too tired to even eat.